The most intimidating thing...

I recently got asked to be apart of a volunteer program called Girls Rock Camp, in which young girls who want to be musicians are coached, encouraged, and brought together to showcase their talents.

Can I just say WHAT an honor to be asked to be a part of something like this? My gah... this has always been a dream of mine. I remember when I was in junior high I wanted so badly for something like this to exist for me. In college I thought, "Man, if I ever make it big I want to start a camp for young girls who need encouragement and the need to build their self esteem."

It's no secret that I have a huge love for children. I kind of adopted a little sister about 3 years back and she's helped me grow as much as I've helped her. I feel really great being apart of her life and teaching her not to make some of the mistakes I did. I feel like it's such a good thing to be that, "big sister," type and not some mother figure. I also love encouraging her to not go with the flow and telling her not to be afraid of being different. I always tell her how proud of herself she'll be looking back knowing she marched to the beat of her own drum.


Things like my relationship with that little girl is what makes me feel truly fulfilled.


To do that on a grand scale? To be a big sister to a bunch of cool little chicks wanting to do the things I do? .... My heart would only pop into a grand finale like the fireworks display at Disney.


The thing is.... how do I even teach them to do what I do? How would I be good at this job they've asked of me? Teachers are amazing people! They shape our youth! You have any idea how big those britches are? What a responsibility! I'm so scared! I can't play an instrument. I don't know much about music theory. How would I create a lesson plan? Where would I begin?? All I have is songwriting experience, stage presence experience, and just a positive attitude.

I do have one thing....


I see it with my, "little sister."

.....I feel like I'm kind of a pied piper of little girls. I don't know what it is... but little girls LOVE me and I love them. I'm able to just.... morph back into being a ten year old instantly. I'm very influential on them and they think I'm cool. :) ... I wonder how long THAT will last now that I'm getting older.


However, when I'm with little chicks, I sometimes feel like Jennifer Garner in 13 going on 30 lol.


I wanna teach them what's cool, what's fun, what's right, how to stand up for themselves, how to love themselves, how to deal with bullies, boys, and mean girls. I want to just... be there and help them be tough little Danielle Brittanys. :)



My heart is in a knot. I'm like, "Oh man! How do I teach these girls the things I know?" Most everything I do just comes naturally. How to I put that into words or... be their sensai? Also I think, "Man! I don't want to let the people down running this camp because I'm not really all that credible!" ... I just write and record music. I get on stage and I sing. It's what I do. I'm not a credible source for anything in the music industry. The women playing instruments and teaching choir are soooo the people for this job. Me? I'm just a pop tart. :)


I don't know what I can bring to the table... but what I do know is I want to be involved SOME how. I just am so scared and intimidated by teaching what I know. I don't know it all. All I know is that I can totally teach these girls to be kickass and tough.


I want these girls to think, "Hey! I'm unique. I'm gonna show these people JUST who I am!" and I want to teach them to follow their dreams and work hard.


If that means that I'm just kind of a peon in the background chiming in a bit and cheering them on... then deal.


I should show them a picture of me when I was in 7th grade and say, "Check this goofy lookin' thing out!" and let them laugh at it. :) Then maybe, hopefully, possibly, they'd see I've morphed into a less awkward, pretty fun, ambitious chick with big dreams and they can do it too?


I only hope.


I want to teach these girls to not be afraid of who they are and being goofy. ..... I've embraced it. Have you seen my shake weight video on youtube? ((slaps forehead))

:)

<3
Danielle